Allah SWT knows best. I think I was meant to be single right now. With my parents' divorce, the pending house sale and subsequent purchase of a new house under my name and Ibu's, it would have been a lot tougher preparing for my own marriage simultaneously. Safwan is a different story; we don't have the same set of responsibilities.

It sucks, nonetheless. It's still my dream and my goal, but right now, I'm just torn up. Yes, even after 2 years and more.

I probably should not procrastinate on the packing up. The sooner we move on, the sooner I can move on with my life.