Talhah's Blog

I hate using the word "hate". It's too strong a word but hate is an appropriate term to describe this, erm, term. I've just completed a couple of individual projects but some heavy group projects are due in the next few weeks. This is not inclusive of my other activities, like the Silat training (both mandatory and extra) and that SPECIAL project.

I am single at the right time. Thank Goodness... I think...

I'm short of time. I need to complete the special proj (Spec) a.s.a.p. as it's due on Saturday. No way around it. I mustn't disappoint my father. I will finish it. I mean, I have the concept, I have the storyboard, I have some of the materials, now I just have to put it all into the thing and just get started.

Sounds easy? I'm not done yet =P

Let's see when I can do this.
Saturday? Maybe in the morning but I'll have to prepare for training. After Training? Perhaps, if I'm not shagged.
Sunday? Hmmmmmmm... Maybe after kompang. Maybe.
Monday? Probably while waiting for 8pm. Yeah, that could work, if I dun mind some weight training (my shoulders are stronger nowadays =P).
Tuesday? Actually, I could. I mean I dun have to go to their house.
Wednesday? SP training. Oh yeah. But what about the hours before? Depends. I might use the time to go to SIR building and renew passport.
Thurs? Finish late, may have kompang training.
Friday? TOO LATE!

So that means I could do it on Saturday (2 hours?), Sunday (3 Hours?), Monday (2 Hours), Wednesday (2 hours minimum), Thursday (1 hour). Total of 10 hours. Hope it's enough and I can focus.

Moving on..

Domestic problems again. Why does my brother think I'm incompetent? Strange, HE is incompetent! Haha, actually it depends on your perspective and what is it you're talking about. Housechores? Hands down, he'll pwn me, especially since coming back from Jakarta. Oh wait, what about his room? DEN DEN DEEEEN.. Again, depends. BUT what about Silat/Kompang matters? He only comes to training on Saturday. Not much of an instructor but better than most. Experience, knowledge and confidence edges him out. However, that's about the limit of his commitment. Sure, he knows a lot of stuff, including "stuff" but I can't really trust him with the daily running of the organisation. I don't know, is it because he is/ i perceive him as immature in Silat terms?

Since he came back from Jakarta, I was eager to share/give some responsibility to him, but he has been disappointing more than anything. Now he thinks I'm incompetent!

Qoutation of Conversation a while ago:

Me:
I will take care of the Kompang stuff. I will set up the system.

Him:
That's what I'm afraid of.

WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!!!!!!

He better not push me and if Father supports him, I'll bestow him with all my responsibilities and see him handle it. Seriously, I have started to not mind my work but if people question my quality/abilities/qualification, I;ll throw down this challenge : STEP IN MY SHOES. I'll like to see ppl try. And I won't accept failure. YOu do well and prove me wrong or lose any ounce of respect I may have for you. I won't accept excuses. I won't accept failures.

That's it for today. Rant night. Sorry. Oh yes, BARCA WIIIIIIIIIIIIINS!! WOot Woot!