Talhah's Blog

anger

Can't believe for two days straight I end the day in frustration, in anger. First one is minor, remeh temeh. A.R.T. had planned to go to war yesterday but a drastic change in plan occurred. Honestly speaking, how things turned out yesterday could have been a lot better had I behaved maturely but like what Ama said, "Since when have you behaved well?". Touche..

In any case, apologies to my buddies if I spoiled the mood.

Then today. WTF. KNN. KPKB. "You" wanna threaten us?! FUck you ah! Don't play with fire! "It'd be sad if we have to close you guys down"??? EH BASTARD what is your reason for shutting us down, if you do plan to shut us down? NOTHING LEGITIMATE! Think carefully lah goblok! Look at our membership, it's not floundering. Look at the training, it's still of a good standard. We still produce national winners. We organised one major event for you guys rather excellently based on the feedback we've received. What, just because he doesn't come for trainings? He has reasons. You think he purposely avoids coming for training?? DO YOU THINK IF YOU GET "THOSE" PEOPLE IN, IT'LL BE ANY BETTER?? We know the industry and its players better than you fucker.

And YOU! Watch your mouth and what you do. Regardless of your past contribution you want to screw around with us you better think again.

'Nuff said.

remorse

I found out from Bang Zahid that Ustazah Rohanah is in a coma after falling from her bicycle. She was my very 1st ustazah, along with Ustazah Tijah, teaching me at KABA. I attribute most of my understanding of Islam to them both. In fact, they were the ones who moulded the Muslim me. But her contribution to my personal development was beyond religious education. She gave me ample opportunities to express myself and take on leadership roles even before silat. Being one of the older ones in the class, she encouraged me to take the lead and I responded quite well to her urgings. I truly enjoyed her classes.

Therefore I'm truly saddened to hear this latest development. Ya Tuhan, tolonglah sembuh Ustazah Rohanah dari keadaannya! I feel helpless, can't do anything, not even visit her (she now resides in America with her husband).. I can only pray... the only thing I can do for her is the gift she taught me, praying...

anxiety

Anytime now, any day, my sister may give birth. I ought to be feeling something but it seems distant to me. How sad. But I can't deny that I don't feel anxious at all. Ya, Bang Ashiq already have a son but he will always be at most a distant sibling. This is MY sister we're talking about. Hope it'll be alright.. Anytime now..

It'd be nice if she delivers on the 12th, then they'll share the same birthday! Haha..

sad

At this exact time of this entry, I'm down to exactly 4 more weeks til I am enlisted. The next time I'll see the moon as it is now, I'll be donning the SCDF kit. I guess I ought to clear my "In" tray as soon as possible and then enjoy the rest of my "freedom". Minimum, I ought to complete the 2 websites and finish marking some papers. I've already completed all the anime Shad's gotta offer so no more excuses. I have to sit down and finish these stuff. I will finish them.

lethargic

Sorry w.a.s.te. At this juncture I'm feeling quite tired from my nearly daily outings. I think... we shld have off-days. Haha.. If the next few outings I excuse myself from joining,I hope you guys';; understand. I've got stuff to clear before I go in. Lemme finish my work then I can truly and completely enjoy myself. ;-)