Talhah's Blog

Finally, the second month of the Gregorian calendar has arrived. Of course, not forgetting the first month of the Hijrah calendar as well!

Gosh, today was a sucky day! OK firstly I woke up late. Reached work at 10am - half an hour late! Chilled a bit, ate breakfast then got my assignment for the day. Again, it's the same assignment I've been doing over the past few weeks.

OK, if the assignment was given to me and I've been told to do all my tasks at one briefing, I'm cool. I won't complain. Thing is, it's almost as if I'm not going anywhere with this thing. I do one part, hand it in, one day or two days later I have to do another part. Like today, my supe told me to come up with different titles. I especially F_____ hate the titles; it's never right for the TA. Here I am, kicking myself in the butt just because I can't manifest a brilliant title. I thought that some of it was right for the project but noooo, it has soo many wrong connotations. Wished I could specify exactly what I'm talking about but as I'm still under internship I don't dare jeopardise my own grades.

In a way I put myself on the spot. I only started working after lunch. Still had some holiday mood lingering. Make that a lot of festive spirit!

I realised that I'm not really a brilliant guy on my own. I work best in a team. I come up with stuff, brainstorm as a team, perfect it. I like discussions. Now, my current work requires me to do a lot of stuff on my own. It's very different from what I'm used to doing. Maybe that is why I am even considering not continuing my stay there after March and find other work, maybe part-time.

Sigh. LO is coming tomorrow. Have to be in the office on time. I'm getting a bit anxious on what to say or discuss with her. Hope tomorrow goes smoothly. Oh, and I got my first paycheck today. Yay. Now I need to monitor my spending more closely. After all it is almost certain that I'm taking over Leslie's bike so I'll need the cash. I also wanna buy PSP so saving is a big necessity atm.

After work, I watched Fun with Dick and Jane to de-stress and recuperate. Actually wanted to watch Memoirs of a Geisha but Bugis Junction was not showing it. Ah well. It wasn't Jim Carrey's best work but it was enjoyable. Not too many laughs, too much story-telling for a comedy and I think they cut a few scenes as well.

Oddly enough the story was quite similar to Elizabethtown, the last movie I watched. Both had the male protaganists losing their super-big jobs and then the plot shows how they dealt with it. Elizabethtown was more touching, a lot more about finding one's self whereas FWDJ is more.. hilarious?

I remembered that I have not commented on Me Dia. Strangely enough, Me Dia is the only play I've watched that tempts me to discuss it in depth. I've watched Ms Saigon. I've watched another local play about a doctor (can't remember the title). I think I've watched a couple more (does Gentarasa count?) but only Me Dia evokes the critic in me. Perhaps because it really touchs a chord in the Artist Me.

I find it too negative. It keep stating the negative points and developments of the Malay Art scene in Singapore. Ok fine, what the play says is true but.. what are you gonna do about it? Instead of possibly inspiring the audience to resuscitate the culture, you invoke doom and gloom and perhaps death of Malay arts in the audience's heart and mind. And it was repetitive. I don't think it was a excellent work. I think it's a below-par plot. It's like hearing old men reminiscing about the past at the coffee shop, sharing good points and dismayed at how culture and tradition has been compromised in the metropolitan called Singapore.

Yesterday, 25 approached me during training and asked me why I didn't go to SP training. It was a safe question, something a friend would usually ask, but why ask in the first place? In a way, I was reading a comic in one corner minding my own business and she actually came to me to inquire about my presence there. Maybe I'm putting too much weight on the matter, but let me put it on writing my thoughts on the 25 matter - even if one day you have a change of heart, I won't change mine. We have long since passed the road junction and there's no U-turning. Don't expect anything special or more from me for I don't expect any from you. We'll both live our lives separate for I have nothing I want from you anymore. I truly sincerely just want us to be friends, and just that. The end.

That's my oath, sealing my regret eternally. But hey, the only thing certain is change. However I doubt (and hope) that this is the one thing that'll remain.