Talhah's Blog

Something's dying in my life. How it started, how it happened.. there was no way I could have predicted it. I definitely did not expect it to finally happen. The last draw. No way. Talk about "unknown unknowns" - this takes the cake.

I can't disclose too much details. It's too personal. Too.. close to me. Who I am. What I am. What I am going to be. If we're not careful, all of us will be tainted.

And today I have been empowered to ask the big question.

Do you, or do you not?

This is sickening. I did not contribute to it at all yet everyone is going to pay the price of one's folly. I have to get out, I can't stay. In fact, no one appears to want to. I'm left alone to salvage the problem, a problem not my own yet becomes mine.

If, if she does go through with what she promises, nothing will be the same anymore. Suddenly I wish September would come sooner. So what if I miss my birthday? May has twice been the stage for some of my most heart-breaking experiences. Ironic. So what about Silat? It will change the entire game completely. Ya Allah.

Staying true to my nature, I shut the world out of my thoughts so I may dwell and suffer them alone.

Why.