Talhah's Blog

There's one big misconception about me, especially among people who have met me or observed me in real life. Anyone have any guesses?

Most people assume that I'm really alim/religious. Am I?

I can assure you, if anything, I'm mildly alim, if there is such a thing. Unfortunately, I can't say I'm a really good Muslim as in I don't miss my 5 prayers, read the Quran daily, etc. Sure, I often utter things like "Insya Allah", "Allahuakbar", etc.. but there's mostly due to being a habit. Just like people saying "Shit" and such things.

In fact the main reason I usually say such things, apart from being a Muslim and this habit is good, is I was taught to me by my Mom and my sis. My sis once told me that my mom's dad a.k.a my Tok Lim would utter "Allahuakbar" in almost anything he did.

Another memorable "lesson" was I once saw this cloud with a really smooth look. You know how clouds are usually puffy? This cloud was almost like a ball. When I pointed it out to my mom, she told me to praise Allah s.w.t and say "Subhanallah".

Things like that stick to me.

I won't say I'm really religious. I'd say I'm more conservative than most guys my age. I wish I could say it's my upbringing but my brother is not like me at all. Not sure. Maybe it's how my life unfolded.

Someone once told me she actually wanted to be friends with me some time ago (before the conversation, which itself was a long time ago) but she was hesitant because I seemed too alim. Only recently did this topic appeared again in my mind.

Is this how most people perceive me? If so, I don't really.

Better assumed alim then a bastard.