Talhah's Blog

Ok this is getting ridiculous. How would you feel when people you hold in utmost respect view you as a villain? They say it is forgiving, but I don't see it. I don't feel it. Sure I made one wrong step (in their eyes) suddenly there's no way back. That's the way I see it.

I made the decision. My decision is "Not now." My priorities have changed. Why am I a bad guy?? A simple thing such as giving something I'm not gonna be needing to someone who needs it.. you guys have to deny??

Why does no one seem to see or understand that I too feel guilty? Why else would I have taken the time to meet him at SP Guild House those many months ago? It's not like I was trying to do something behind their backs. I told them.. and they made me choose. And cos I din choose them, they have alienated me.

My "Brother and Sister".. I still love and trust you. But how am I to return one day when it's obvious the higher echelons don't want to have anything to do with me?