Suddenly it crossed my mind. An image of you, pregnant with his child. Painful. Another guy is living out my dream.
Sigh.
I don't know why but considering the 1st has married, the 2nd is getting married and you have yet to declare any plans of marriage, thoughts of you are simply depressing. Maybe cos I believe/know I can be a better man than the guy you are with.
Well, I'm not standing still. You were part of a glorious past, but I'm looking forward to the future.
Things will get better, Talhah. I'm sure 2 years down the road, I'll re-read this and realise just how silly I was..
