The Memories function on Facebook is kinda bitter-sweet thing for me. Sometimes I rediscover old gems like jokes or photos or moments.. But then things related to her will obviously pop up too.

To be honest, the 'pang', that dreadful feeling of regret I used to have whenever I think or read or see anything related to her has numbed out. Sure, I do think of her ocassionally (but not as often as before). I've definitely not read her blog since before her wedding (and in case you are reading, you probably shouldn't be reading mine either).

But it doesn't hurt anymore.

I recognise that part of it is because she is now someone's wife. Largely it's because I have found someone who loves me as much as I love her.

She will always be a big part of my past, but lately I'm too busy planning for my future. That includes preparing to move out. Finally got a buyer. We should be out of the house before Safwan's wedding. When we will move in will depend on how soon we find the ideal home, and the renovation works.

So the Year of Big Changes continues.

May all I hold dear find their happiness.

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