Talhah's Blog

I am, by nature, a lazy individual. Seriously. I know if people from SCDF were to read this, they'd think I'm lying. Well, they'd be the only ones. 'Cos the fact is, my time in SCDF as an NSF is the only period in my life thus far whereupon I'm active, energetic (most of the time), enthusiastic - everything but lazy- for a prolonged duration i.e. months.

Since young, I never did like doing homework. I think I still got homework due since... Primary 4 at the very least! I just couldn't be bothered. I didn't like studying. The only time I really put in time and effort cramming was for my O levels, and some of my poly modules. Other than that, the only time I studied and understood my subjects were in class. That was my principle. Study belongs in class, and it stays in class.

Coincidentally, at each stage of my education, there would be at least one educator who would advice me that if I put in more effort, play less, study harder, I can get good grades cos (no, this is not me being ego-istic or whatever, this is what they really did tell me) I got the brains. I was smart enough to be a high-scoring student if I wanted to be. But I didn't want to. I was scared by my Primary 4 experience when I was in the top class and just... just didn't like it. Heh, my mom at one time even said I could go to RI if I wanted to. But I didn't.

Anyways, yada yada yada. So people keep telling me to work harder. Aunts from both my dad and mom's side knows I'm lazy. How sad. But I didn't really heed any of their advice.

But something about SCDF, particularly ERS, that motivated me. Inspired me to be better. To be more knowledgeable. To strive harder. To keep fit and be fitter. Something. I don't even know what it is.

That's part of the reason I'm signing on. I tried to picture myself working in an office, and I can't see myself working as hard as I did in Changi. I guess this line suits me quite well, for now. Or maybe I've matured. Maybe. Maybe I finally realised the need to be hardworking.

Don't get me wrong. I'm still a very lazy guy. Heck, I'm even too lazy to update this blog more regularly!

P.S. I learned a new word today : torpid, a synonym for laziness. How nice, and it starts with T too!