Talhah's Blog

I read your blog. I read what you said to me. I read... and now, I feel regret, sincerely remorseful, truly touched, definitely dumbstruck (somewhat). I never expected to have THAT much of an impact on anyone, especially on someone like you. I mean if it was my gf or ex-gf, ok understandable, but coming from you... it really touches the right strings in my heart. But then again, I'm currently carried along a strong EMO current for a while.

I don't know how often you do check my blog but here's my explanation. When you blocked everyone, I was quite hurt. It was to me like "Thank you for all the fun and the shit but now, goodbye, I don't wanna see or hear from you anymore. Get out of my life." But I suck it up cos i could see where you were coming from. You couldnt continue silat, which i gather you quite enjoyed (heck, even i would enjoy if months since joining i entered a competition and won bronze! :P) so perhaps you did not want to endure chatting with ppl who are 'privileged', so to speak. I understood, so i went on with my life.

Then some point in time, you unblocked me, so i gladly chatted with you. To my disappointment, you chatted as if you were forced, like it was a nuisance chatting with me. Okay fine, it wasn't the first time and definitely not anything new to me. Then you blocked me and moments later you posted something that deeply hurt me. Maybe you meant it playfully but to me it was the last draw. (PS it was something about the password thingy.)

So i decided, to hell with it. why go through this ridiculous facade? its like, you dictate the conditions and terms we should chat etc.. so i blocked you. i was sick of seeing your nick but getting no or negative response from you. so i blocked you to solve the problem for me.

I don't know why but 'tis the season for broken friendships for me. One, my so-called bestfriend, whom i have yet to forgive for some comments that broke my trust and bond with him. Yeah, it may seem like we have ironed the problem out, but bro, when was the last time we truly chatted?? Yes thats right, the grudge remains. til then, fuck off.

Strangely, i never felt compelled to block him.

of course the other 'broken bond' is yourself. my actions may seem drastic but i deem them necessary.

I may never tell you my inner thoughts. However, you could refer to my 'poem' and guess which verse is about you.

then as i'm officially a graduate, naturally i may not see some or most of my classmates again. Some are good riddance but to those i shared great moments, i'll miss you and hope to still chat with yall on MSN.

Gal, i'm sorry. Can we be friends again?