Talhah's Blog

First thing first, I'll like to inform everyone via my Blog that I'm not bringing my hp into camp so please don't try calling me or anything. You can still leave SMSes of course, but my replies will be late... damn late. So help pass the msg, ya?

Soo.. last post before enlistment. Somehow.. it's yet to hit me. As in, my mind is unfazed, indifferent, like nothing's gonna change, everything is in status quo, ya sure, going into NS tomorrow, been talking about it, so what... that sort of thing. Yet, my heart is constantly reminding me that it is a reality. I am enlisting tomorrow.

I guess this is ambivalence. I'm dreading it yet at the same time I'm welcoming it. I am ready to take on NS and learn and experience it yet dreading the unforeseen, the undesirables, the inevitable.

Can't wait for it, yet trepidation is cloaking my heart.

*Deep breaths*

Watched Monster House with Wan and Ezza today. It was hilarious! Heck, we were already laughing before the movie begins. You know how music concerts, they have small time artistes opening up for the main event? We experience the movie equivalent - funny movie trailers and some silly commercials.

The movie itself is awesome. I was practically laughing from start to end. Even the rather innocent, non-hilarious opening of the little girl riding a tricycle had the three of us chuckling in our seats (mainly because just before the movie started we had associated Waste members to certain characters in the movie - I was the fat kid and Ama, the tricycle-riding girl. THAT was why we were already laughing!)

Wan, Ezza.. you guys never cease to cheer me up and get me in a good mood. You are truly Allah s.w.t.'s gift to me, truly. Though you may not know it, I too had some troubled times the past few months and you gave me an outlet, an exit from those troubles and just enjoy life. Same thing for Ama. Same thing for Shad.

You know Wan, as we were reminiscing like some old fools in the MRT just now about how we had our very first true interaction, I realised something. Among all the NCC guys, I befriended you, Shad and Anwar first and look where we are now. We're still strong friends, yes even Anwar. I thank Allah s.w.t. for giving me such excellent friends.

Shad, I've always looked at you as my leader. I'm not sure why, I just do. I'd be lying if I say I don't look up to you sometimes because I do. Sure Sec 3 was shit but somehow, our friendship didn't falter and I dare say it has grown stronger the past few months.

Wan, what can I say? You exude such cheerful aura I can't help but become drunk in happiness and cast aside what worldly troubles I have. I hope that the past few months, when you've been plunged into such depths of misery I've done what you have done for me; helping each other be happy and enjoy life. Stay happy bro.

Anwar. Hmm.. bukannye dia baca blog aku. Lain kali ah! :-P

Ezza and Ama. You know, I am not really a good joker. There's a valid reason why my nick in Sec is "Merepek". Yet, you guys are like a catalyst, transforming me into a clown in our group. I thank you gals for that. Not sure why and how we've managed to click and bond so quickly and so well but this friendship is one I'll treasure. Thanks for giving me such a wonderful time while waiting for NS.

For those not mentioned in this blog, fret not. I value every individual that's played a role in my life. It's just that, these past few months since I graduated would have been quite dour without those 5 guys. I feel alive. I feel happy. I believe I'm even a better Muslim because of my friends. What more can I say? You guys rock.

Gosh.. today was super great. Even the training. The kids were excellent today, maybe because they knew today was my last. Alhamdulillah. It was a nice send-off, a nice end to civilian life as it is.

I oughta be sleeping soon. Enlistment at 11am at Jln Bahar camp. I'll update as and when I can.

Au revoir!