Talhah's Blog

"204 Posts, last published on Oct 19, 2008 "

Wah... so long ago! And so much has changed since!! I feel like I'm a new person now. I'm learning new stuff, doing things I would have not done before, I'm meeting and associating with positive, ambitious people... I myself feel like I have a new purpose in life, that I want to achieve slowly, eventually.

Success is my favourite word right now cos that is something I want. What success? I dunno, but success in something, some day. How would I know if I am successful? By definition, "success is the progressive realisation of a worthwhile dream!" I believe I can do it, it's just a matter of time.

This month, money-wise, have been an uber-tight one. After paying a lot of my hutangs rather automatically without thinking or calculating or checking, I realised I din have enough to really survive this month. And I still got somemore stuff to pay off!!

I really am living paycheck to paycheck. Hopefully, it won't be forever.

I made a mistake yesterday of looking at her photos. I have not thought about her much, if at all, for quite a while and honestly, I forgot just how... beautiful she is. To me lah. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder mah... Then I checked myself and realised that looking at the photos.. anything to do with her is a negative activity so I watched our ERS POC vid on the facebook!

It was really cool of Izhar to share the vid on Facebook. Now, whenever I feel low or disillusioned with my job, I just watch that video to psyche myself up again.

Hmm... Right now my life has 5 things : Work, SP Silat, TS Silat, side project, Family. If I have some spare time, then it'd be lepakz time or go out with friends. And looking at the five things, 3 of them are already somewhat confidential matters i.e. cannot share on a public blog, and both silat stuff... maybe can share... but I don't think so, considering my position.

Imagine if I'm your coach and you get in here and read things like, "...oh and that boy really irritates me! What am I doing? He's hopeless!..." and others?! hahaha.. I mean, let's be real, a lot of time, blogs are for ranting. We live in a very negative world, so naturally we want to flush out the negatives from our system. Blogging is very convenient in that sense. Only problem? It's public. It's relatively permanent and unretractable.

So that means... I got nothing to blog about, even though I've been having a ball of a time lately!

Too bad :P