After my second girlfriend, I was single for quite a while. During that period, I went through lots of changes and new experiences. Going through all those new stuff, I had one prevailing thought - I wanna do these things with my partner.

I wanted to do stuff, experience new things, make wonderful memories with a girl by my side. To me it would enhance the whole experience. (sidenote: stop using the word 'experience')

I go overseas I would think that having a girlfriend along would make the trip better. Do some new stuff, wouldn't it be better doing it together with the loved one?

I guess I did get what I wanted, in a certain point of view. With Keen, we went through lots of new things. Especially for me. We made lots and lots of great, even wonderful memories.

And now that's the problem.

When I went riding to Desaru with Safwan yesterday, I kept thinking about the numerous Johor trips I did with Keen and her mom. To Tebrau City. To her grandparents' house. To her uncle's place. To malls.

It's not just to Johor. There are places I avoid simply to prevent all the memories from popping up.

They were wonderful times. They are wonderful times. But... It's hindering ne from moving on completely.

And so yeah. Wishes.. Doas.. Do get granted but not always the way we wanted.

And that's why I'm looking for a wife, no more girlfriends. That's my current wish.