Talhah's Blog

Heh, third post in a single seating. Main reason being, I can't sleep (not because lack of effort or want but more of necessity to monitor the progress of my Video conversion). Secondly I had a lot of things in my mind but until the 'testimony' prompted me to post something I did not feel like expressing my thoughts online. (Eyes are EVERYWHERE!)

Thing is.. things are happening. No, its not like "thing" is the 'in' thing, more like things are occuring, developing.. etc.. Such as, erm, kerinduan. Gosh.. should I write it?

I missed her.

Nearly 3 years and the feelings came back quite strongly. I have thought of her quite often the past few weeks. I couldnt put a finger on it before but I realise it has something to do with my Creative Zen Neeon, more specifically the songs. Listening to the songs set me into a zone and i would reminisce about the past, particularly about the glorious TK days (hahahahahahahahahahaha) as well as post TK, early poly years.. And naturally, the person most prominent in my life then would come into the picture. Then.. i'll miss her.

Thing is, i'm not sure if we could be together again. Not sure if i wanna try too. That is why.. erm.. we're having lunch sometime next week. Sheesh.

Yet recently I've had my eyes on someone. Someone I've known for quite a long while. Someone. But Something's holding me back. Something's jealous of what could happen between me and Someone. So now Something's doing everything to prevent anything from happening between us.

Ok, reading 2 Terry Pratchett books consecutively could do that to a person.

In any case, i'm asking myself, should i continue to play safe, not take any risk because of what has happened in past endeavours? I find myself saying, yes. myself is a bad confidante, not very encouraging. I think i should find someone else other than myself for advice.

i think i'm starting to like her. (Cue audience going either ooooooooooooooooo or awwwwwwwwwwww) Question now (no, i'm not asking you, myself. Keep quiet) is should i go for it or let it pass just like what i did with 25, anida, mallgal, rane and whoever else?

I guess its about timing and opportunity. So if i do get the opportunity, i'll grab it.

I've seen and caught you looking at my direction (whether you were actually looking at me is questionable) so i'm asking myself (yes yes, now you may answer, myself) are you looking at just a friend or someone potentially more?

BTW, i love Terry Pratchett ^_^

P.S. what would you take out if the house is on fire? :D