Talhah's Blog

Now's not the best of times to be Talhah.

Then again, when has it ever been?

I had an ominious suspicion 3 birthdays ago that Karma is gonna hit me hard for my improper deeds and conduct. I guess I'm now in the other party's shoes. Now.. I am the Fool. Padan muka.

Stop fooling yourself Talhah. "Nice guys finish last?" I'm no nice guy, I don't think I'll even finish.

It's out in the open. No attempts at secrecy. Taking me as a fool.. and why not? I am a fool.

I don't regret the things I've done, the decisions, the choices, the sacrifices I've made. But I am pained that it has not mattered in the grand scheme of things. I have not mattered.

Do't lie to me. Don't kid yourself. You know it's true.

In the past I was contented with my meagre collections of Silver medals and no. 2s. It's alright to be second. But not when it came to this. I want to be number one. Numero uno, comprende?

I'm not gonna give up. But it hurts when those you're fighting for are secretly rooting for another team. Heartbreaking even.

I may be foolish at times but I'm not stupid.